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Reentry is rough.

Hi everyone,

So this will be my last post. I know. Where the hell has the time gone. This post was supposed to be up on Monday, but I just started my summer job and well ya… you know how that goes. But I’m writing now. I was also kinda sorta putting it off because this post definitely feels like a concrete end to my time abroad. It is really over. I have to say the hardest part of this whole reentry is returning to normal life. It is just so sad being back in my tiny town and slipping back into a very familiar routine after being in the most magical place in the the world for the past four months. I have these moments when I am at work where I wonder if the whole thing ever actually happened. Those first few days of being back were really tough. The sadness which I can only describe as something that feels a bit like homesickness  has waned a bit but I still get a bit misty at times when thinking about all the amazing stuff I did. The thing that gets me the most is simply that it is over. Now I have to go face the real world which, let’s be real honest here, really freaking sucks. I have to be done now or I will lose my composure so for the very last time….

Cheers everyone.

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3 Responses to “Reentry is rough.”

  1. Michelle Says:

    Nicole, the weight of your reentry is a direct response to how fully and wholly you gave yourself to the experience. It speaks to what you did, what you learned, and how pivotal an achievement this really is. Continue to talk about it, process it, and remember that when you pass through one door you have a responsibility to reach back and bring someone else through behind you. You have accomplished so much already as a first generation college student, and represent one of very few “first gens” who actually study abroad. Try to use your reentry as an opportunity to talk about what you’ve done, how you’ve done it, and what an amazing experience it was!!

  2. Suzi - IFSA Ireland Says:

    Nicole – this is a brilliant blog entry, thank you for the emotion you packed in! I have seen many students go through the same and I always think Great! If you studied abroad and didn’t have these feelings then it would not have counted! Well done and hope to see you somewhere across the ocean again soon :)

  3. Jackie Knowles Says:

    I studied abroad in the fall semester of ’06. I found it extremely difficult to readjust to my life in the States after my return home. Not only was I working part-time, but I went right back into being a full-time college student, with lots of homework, projects and papers. It was the worst college semester for me, because it hit me like a ton of bricks. All of the responsibility at once, back to the same old, same old. It just didn’t compare to the get up and go attitude I had in Spain. But, over time, I learned to incorporate that get up and go mentality back at home and was just as eager to do and see new things in my hometown than I did abroad. In fact, I probably saw and did more in my hometown the last two years of college than I had my first 20 years of life! To be honest, I still fantasize about my magical time in Spain – and wish I could have that time of my life back. But I have had to learn to just be happy that it happened. That I got to experience it and how much it affected me. Pass your enthusiasm for study abroad to other college students, and if you can, try to study abroad again – or continue with international experience for the rest of your life. You are forever changed. Now, the question is, how will you utilize this change, or what will become of it?

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